Well, this is my adoption update. I'm learning patience. We're working on our paperwork, still. Three of our Dr. appointments are complete, I have my new driver's license (which I thought I better do before it expired on Friday and I applied for fingerprinting). Looks like I won't be getting everything in before the New Year like I was hoping, and I'll be lucky to get all of the paperwork in by the end of January, anyways. We don't have any prospects, so part of me wonders why I even care when we get it done, but if you have no goal, things often just don't get finished at all, or so I am telling myself.
I went to see my best friend's twins yesterday. Both between 5 and 6 pounds. So tiny. With my youngest nearing 5, I feel so removed from the whole baby thing, and yet I instinctually knew what to do with a baby in my arms, and I know that I would never be able to rest in my soul not trying for another child one way or another, and I cannot ever conceive again, so I am patient as I put in one puzzle piece at a time towards adopting, towards completing our family puzzle. I guess I'm just afraid of getting my hopes up again, getting too excited before it's time, because I've been there, and done that, and patience and peace is far better, much easier.
Andy