by Mar2 » Aug 24, 2004 1:03 pm
Hey Suzanne - <FOODMENT> You are going to laugh your butt off at me, but I kept an open package of Lorna Doone cookies, that my mom bought in the hopes something would stay down, in my briefcase until I returned to work after having Maranda. Now mind you, those cookies were purchased during my 1st HG pgcy--a month before we lost the baby so that is 18 months of crumbs (thank goodness they were in a ziplock)! I absolutely could NOT get myself to toss them. But once I had Maranda, I thought it was getting pretty disgusting, so I tossed them for sanitation (and sanity) reasons - LOL! Also, I didn't work for most of Maranda's pgcy so I forgot about those cookies until I returned to work. But I would NEVER have tossed them during her pgcy anyway.
Typically, I am the antithesis of a pack-rat. But I've still got boxes full of hospital wrist bands, HIPAA docs, zero size t-shirts, etc. from that first pgcy. And I'm not even close to throwing them out. Your pain is still so new and raw. Please go easy on yourself and take the time you need to mourn. Your body hasn't even caught up/recovered from the loss yet. It is going to take much, much more time and patience for your heart, mind, and spirit to heal.
(((HUGS))),
Marla
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HG PG 1: miscarried at 16 weeks 3/18/2002
HG PG 2: baby girl 5/29/2003
Step-Son: born 11/26/1990 (acquired May 1997)