by justme » May 08, 2007 3:19 pm
Teresa,
Hi, I am so sorry to hear about the pain that hg has brought into your life. I think that if you have the love in your heart and means to adopt a child, then you should. I know that special needs children, and older children, can be particularly hard to place - you would be such a blessing in their life. It sounds like you are haunted by a lot of guilt which makes you question whether or not you have the right to adopt these children - I would like to suggest perhaps some counseling to help you work through the guilt. I am sorry that hg put you in the position of having to make those decisions - but I think that helping other children can be a great way to honor them and let your family heal. Also, I don't know if you are religious or not, but I want you to know that as far as God would feel - you are absolutely 100% forgiven and worthy of love and happiness. And he would be so happy for you to turn this tragedy in your life into an opportunity to help other children - he has always had great compassion for the widows and orphans.
Hugs,
Karen