(((Natalie))),
I think that almost anyone with more than one child can relate. It is so hard to balance the needs of your children, your house, your husband, not to mention yourself.
Marie said:
[i]I found that with time (and Lexapro) a semi-routine was established[/i]
Hey, that was my line!
Seriously, though, here are some things that I have learned. Some of them sound trite, but they are true and if you can take a deep breath, stand back for a moment and view all that is going on dispassionately for a moment, it is often much easier to jump back in and do what needs doing and ignore the rest.
1)
Love my children. Everyday when the house is crumbling around you and Bethy is demanding something of you and Theo is screaming... look around you and think to yourself, "I love these children ridiculously deeply." Nothing will change, but your understanding of why you would tolerate such disarray and stress.
2)
Accomplish one thing everyday. Every morning decide on one thing you will succeed in finishing no matter what. Maybe it is washing diapers. Maybe it is taking a walk with the kids. Maybe it is eating a meal sitting down at the table. Whatever it is, do and it and then congratulate yourself for your accomplishment.
3)
Make time for you. I have a friend who used to close herself up in her closest for 15 minutes everyday with the cordless phone and chat with a friend. She would put the baby in the crib and her other little one in the high chair with a snack in front of the TV and then enjoy 15 minutes of blissful selfishness. The point is, that you need to have time for you. A happy mommy is the best gift you can give your kids.
4)
Admit that your perfectionism is a problem, not an asset. This is the hardest for me and I'm still working on it. When I get the urge to wash all the curtains before a family party or when the clean laundry sits in baskets waiting for me to have a moment to put it away, because DH always puts it in the wrong drawers, or when I am up until 1:00am ironing because the world will end if Anabel's polyester wash and wear uniform does not have perfect pleats, etc. I mentally shake myself and demand to know how I am helping myself, my kids, my family. The answer is always the same... I'M NOT!!!!!!!! So, I'm trying to let it go. Instead of congratulating myself for my alphabetized spice cabinet, I'm feeling proud of letting the kids make their own beds with out fixing them after they leave the house. It's a process, but well worth it for the whole family.
I know that I have rambled on and on... so I hope that this was helpful. Sorry if I was too "preachy."
All the best,