Getting down about physical pain

[Mom to Aidan & Daniel]

I'm beginning to panic about the tush, back and hip pain I've developed recently. A few years ago I had a non-cancerous tumor in my spinal cord, and had terrible pain for a long time. Lots of physical therapy helped, and I've had a few good years. Now, a few days before I'm gonna become a mom, I'm in agony again. It's distracting, and scary. I'm worried that it'll distract my pleasure in the baby, and get me into a crappy, poor-me place! I'm so annoyed! I'm trying to be philosophical and yogic about it, but with minimal success. It's freaking me out on some level. Nothing helps the pain, and I'm getting depressed about it. On a scale of 1 to 10 I'd put it at a 7 or so, and that's too high to ignore. I'm limping around, wincing and feeling 100 years old, angry once again at my body that seems to fail me all the time with the wierdest, stupidest stuff.

ARGH!!

Any ideas for coping tools? Inspiration, anything?

Sarah