moderator introductions

[IslandDreamer]

Trudy:

Hi my name is Trudy and I am a new moderator in this forum. I am the mother of 4 beautiful children, Beth and Adam here with us and Laura and Abby (Twins) waiting for me in heaven. I have survived HG 3 times and know what is it to have to fight for your life, the life of your baby(s)and some decent treatment.

During a routine specialist appt during my 1st pg the Dr could not pick up any heartbeats. A scan confirmed our twins had died, 4 & 5 weeks earlier. I went in for a D&C which did not go well. I woke up in recovery screaming. My OB was called in and he took me back in to theatre. The other Dr had torn a hole in my uterus and bowel lining. I took months to even physically recover. And still suffer severe abdominal pain.

As a result I ended up with PTSD which was untreated. I’d wake at night re-living everything that happened as if I was right there again. The flashbacks were more than I could cope with. It was scary for me and for my husband to watch. I knew I needed help, but wouldn’t admit it and my pride also stopped me getting help. At the time I was managing a Community Mental Health Service so refused to turn to my staff. The last 4 years have been the hardest I’ve ever had to face. The person I became was absolutely horrible. Only now, that I’ve been able to admit that I had PTSD and seek help that I am coming out the end of the tunnel.

I am here to support you in any way I can. And I encourage you, if you are struggling with anything, to ask for help. It’s not always easy, but well worth it.