, but I was managing just fine 
.
Then I saw this: http://www.catholicsupply.com/christmas ... /16154.JPG
Tell me it's not Jack sending a balloon to his big sister in heaven. Well, knowing it was Joshua's edd and seeing that statue...then hearing Natalie Grant singing "Held" in the VERY next store...well, day wrecked. Bought the Willow Tree and sat in Marshall's listening to "Held" and crying like a crazy person. I carried Hope exactly 2 months....she died at 10 weeks exactly.
Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.
Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.
Chorus:
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.
This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred know our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.
(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.
Bridge:
If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?
(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.
-Held, Natalie Grant
I wish this weren't my life...I wish this weren't part of any of our lives. I want our babies back....
