I am right now 8 weeks pregnant to be 9 weeks pregnant on Tuesday. I am suffering from hyperemesis so badly right now. I have lost already like 10 pounds. This is my second pregnancy with this condition. It got worse the second time around. I lost 30 pounds with my daughter. I threw up everything and was always in the hospital. This time it is so much worse. I keep nothing down not liquids or food with zofran every 8 hours. I am at the hospital at least 2 to three times a week. I also have crohns disease. I have already had an intestinal blockage due to the zofran i take to help my vomiting. I throw up bile. I have dry heaves. People stop my and tell my i look jaundice and horrible. I have only the support from my mom and dad. My husband does not support me or understand me. I have Iv hydration at home. My body rejects every single Iv they put in my arms. I have no more areas for ivs to be put in my arms. I have had at least 20 ivs since the thursday before christmas. I have spent the last two holidays in the hospital. I have severe stomach pain, spotting and bleeding. I am suffering i can not clean or take care of my daughter, the house or anything. I have made the sad decision to end this pregnancy on Saturday. My husband says i am a murderer and threatens to leave me. I am so sad. I feel so depressed sometimes i just wish i could just die to avoid the pain and the suffering. I can not wait until this is over. I can not work right now this is a huge financial burden on my family. I never want to be pregnant ever ever again. I feel so alone. My parents are so stressed out from talking to me. I have no one to confide in. I actually pray for a miscarriage and i feel like such a bad person for saying so but i am so desperate. My doctors tell me their is nothing that they can do. I can't take Zofran, i reject the iv's, i can not eat or drink. I am getting skinny and all my clothes are falling off of me. I am falling apart and so is my family. At least i have one child but i am afraid that i can never have any more children. I have the feeling when my stomach is empty. I know what starvation feels like i am going through it right now and dehydration. My doctor won't approve a pic line or zofran as necessary by iv and no one person told my about steroids to help. I hate the doctors for not understanding or taking my for real. They say this is a healthy pregnancy. That is such a lie. NO one cares about my or the quality of my life. I can not leave my house or drive. My daughter can not be taken outside. I feel like she is suffering as well. I just need support from someone out there. Please someone tell me i am not alone. I have cried to much today my head hurts. Please write to me.
Thank you