Hello ladies
Sorry this is going to come out as a whinge, but you are the only ones who will understand.
This morning dd and I went to our first "New Baby" group, which is run by the local health service. It was good and I met some really nice people, but of course I didn't want to harp on about how sick I was during the pregnancy. I just felt like crying when some of these "fluffy bunny mummies" started talking...especially when it was their 2nd (or more) pregnancy. When it got round to me for the labor and delivery section, I said my delivery was great: I had a planned Ceaser, and it was all over and done with within 2 hours - including my surgeon being an hour late. It was a postive experience for me.
To make me feel more incompetent, dh packed the nappy bag :- the bottle was not done up properly so all the water leaked out everywhere in the bag, so dd was crying for ages while I cooled down some water for her feed, and dh didn't put in a set of spare clothes (sure, I should have cheked but he is usually really good! ) and i had to borrow some off another mum because dd did the most massive dirty nappy she has ever done and it was all in her clothes and everything. Long story short: It was VERY embarassing!
Anyway, most of the mums are well etc and of course I am stacks better, but still not quite as well as I would like to be.
What can I say when people ask me about my pregnancy (which I would love to say "It was a really sh!tty experience, which I will not repeat!!")without being too negative, but not getting into details about HG, or feeling like i have to justify my reasons, for C-section, bottlefeeding and my decision not to have any more? I really dont want to get into how sick I was, but I can't really gush over my "wonderful" pregnancy either.
Thanks so much, feeling much better getting it all out of my system
Di