Hi everyone, Im new..shlby..Im lovingly married to my highschool sweet heart, and we have a handsome 2 1/2 year old boy.
I did have SEVERE HG (and 8 kidney stones) w/my son, we nearly didnt make it. (I refused a picc line-being a 'stoick'..ie dummy- 1st timer- and my dr. 3 years ago was not up speed on HG). I know have a new dr.
We lost a preg. in jan 04, and just found out we are pregnant. Know that my husband and I planned and prepared to deal with HG/K.stones...and then came the kicker..we are having TWINS!!! I am now nearly 11 weeks in. and have had HG since 5 weeks, its been a battle to be a mommy to my son ( I feel so helpless)
July 1, I broke down, got a PICC line..ouch!!! and have been on zofran for several weeks. I thought my picc was going to mean a couple of hours on a IV bag and than I would be 'back to normal'..not true (my hopes dashed along with serveral hours of crying)..Im on fluids 18 hours a day..this is not what I had hoped for..from being bed bound, and not being able to really care for our son, and dh doing everything except bathing me, Now Im tied to this pump..( I feel like my world is caving in..I used to be so busy with my family..and now..utter 'sickness' and sadness that there is no overnite fix')..
Please dont judge me..im tired ,sad, hurting, and depressed, and have been thru this before..and more with the kidney stones at 7 months..so I know the score already... the idea of trying to carry TWO babies thru this nightmare makes me cry when ever I think about WHAT might happen if they deliver early. (Ive read so much info on HG/Kidneystones and twins..)no matter what anyone says...mothers instinct...I just dont know..I just keep praying...but you all know how hard it is with just one baby...I dont know anybody in my shoes...(kinda makes me feel all alone even with a supportive family and friends.) Im so scared..and I tell everyone that..but nobody can 'fix this'
-I'll be ok.im just hoping sombody has some insight. bless you all,
Thanks for being here.
~shlby
Matt 10-3-01