I do this to myself every pregnancy. It's so hard not to. I have a history of gestational diabetes (and IGT when non-pregnant), usually begin pregnancy with one illness or another (this time around it was just a respiratory bug, thank goodness), am dependent on Zofran from week 4 onward, my diet sucks thanks to HG, and, as my OB likes to continually point out this pregnancy, I'm now an "older mom" (*shudders*... I'm 33, who knew that qualified me as "older" already?!).
So tomorrow is the NT scan. My sugars have been good, blood pressure's good, I've not had a single trip for hydration this preg (and that has taken WORK - I'm not fluffy, just really, really, really stubborn because the hospital is 45 minutes away and I have no childcare for my two girls). I'm still getting sick 3-4 times a day, haven't gotten entirely back to pre-pregnancy weight yet (but I'm close! Only 1-2 pounds away that I keep yo-yo-ing back and forth with). But I'm still absolutely convinced I "screwed up" somewhere along the way and that the baby will have one issue or another.
I'm already freaked out and feeling guilty for a problem that (hopefully) likely doesn't exist.
Plus it's sooo difficult to believe there's a 13 week pregnancy in there when we're at that odd inbetween stage where no movement is felt, I'm not really showing, and it still seems like more of a sickness than a baby.
Ugh, sorry, this was ranty. I just needed to get it all out there, lol. Prayers/positve thoughts realllllllly appreciated tomorrow! I have the scan in the afternoon (meaning I have all morning to really work myself into a tizzy, lol).
3rd time HGer
HG Baby 1 born 10.31.04, in the States - treated with Reglan, which resulted in dystonic reaction, and IVs. Developed GDM, as well.
HG Baby 2 born 9.3.07 in Australia - Zofran, weekly IVs, misc other meds, no GDM.
HG Baby 3 due September 2012 - HG treated with Zofran primarily. 8lb weight loss so far.