i'm so sorry to hear about your loss. please be assured that you're not alone. my husband and i made the decision to terminate at 15 weeks in september. it hits you out of nowhere, you're totally blindsided and confused and you're hurting, and starving and in pain. you will start to heal though. i thought oh my God, what have i done when i woke up in the hospital, immediately regretting our decision. afterwards, when i got home and started getting back to my daily routine, i realized that while sad, we made the best decision at the time. and find hope in yourself that you will one day have the courage to try again, this time, knowing what is to possibly come, you can plan. use this site not to feel bad, but rather to see that if these women can do it, you can too. i have used them as a backbone to start investigating good doctors and planning and it's december. you'll never forget, but, you can find solace in it. you have to accept it, know that you made the best decision at the time and tuck it away somewhere inside of you. you're a great person i'm sure and there's nothing malicious behind what you chose. don't let people judge you, they'll never understand. my thoughts and prayers are with you, please, find a way to accept this decision and try to think ahead. hugs.
angel baby - 9/14/2011 - severe HG