When I was younger (like teen) I was a big supporter of Planned Parenthood & very pro-choice b/c I believed that I would have an abortion if I ever got pregnant. Then I got pregnant... and never doubted that I wanted my baby = I changed my stand on abortion. I did refer to my baby as "The Parasite" during the worst moments, when I doubted that either of us would live, but even when the Dr suggested abortion as a "cure" I didn't consider that an option.
I did often think about dying. I did fear my child being born w/ many severe deformities due to my health condition. I was plagued with nightmares of people being tortured & murdered... and I feared that it would somehow make her a criminal. The fear, pain, lack of support, blood, etc made it impossible for me to think clearly or enjoy the pregnancy at all = I thought about death a LOT and avoided dealing with what was going on. I regret that. HG robs a person of the "joy" of becoming a mother and leaves terror behind. I wish I could have had "hope" while pregnant... maybe that would have made me feel differently during and after the pregnancy.
I voted "yes". Not because I thought about terminating my pregnancy but b/c I did worry about dying all the time.
>Me: Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, spontaneous pneumothorax, Stephen Johnson's syndrome, hyperemesis gravidarium, thrombophlebitis (5x), ...etc
>DD: Duane Syndrome Strabismus, ADHD, Asperger's Syndrome, & Type 1 Diabetes. Gifted IQ
>DC: due may 2012
~Learning to leave it ALL in God's hands.~