Hey Guys - Thanks for checking up on me and for all your support. I am doing OK. I seem to have good days and bad days yet. I finally broke down today and told DH I cannot handle everything anymore. At first he got defensive and told me it's not easy for him to work 7 days and I am getting what I want by being a SAHM. I counted to ten....(I wanted to rip his head off LOL) and explained to him that yes, I understand it's not easy on him and I get to stay home, but I cannot handle everything else. He is only awake and with us about 1-2 hours a day and is too tired to help me. Spencer has been eating every 2 hours and he lingers at the breast for an hour. So I literally have 1hour of free time between feeds. I cannot catch up on laundry, clean the house, eat, shower & all that stuff in between. Not to mention I am so tired I don't feel like doing a thing. Plus, I don't know if you guys are like me, but I let the house go to hell during HG. Yeah, the bathrooms & such were clean, but all the closets need to be re-done, our pantry is crazy. I can't find anything and boxes of food fall out when you open it. The fridge is so gross. I just need time to do all these little things. Then it seems like I just get the family room organized and somebody with kids visits and our house is like a tornado aftermath. I just told him how overwhelmed I am. He seemed to "get it".
Tomorrow is our anniv and he is taking then night off and my mom is watching the kids while we go out to dinner. Then I might have my mom give him a bottle and we may just hang out somewhere else for a while. I just have this awful guilt factor about giving him a bottle though. I did pump enough milk for it, but I just feel all weird about missing a feeding. But I doubt an hour is enough time for dinner, plus Spencer is cluster feeding at night so I am hoping by missing one feeding my milk supply won't go down. But, I am looking forward to that alone time.
So, by him being off Thurs. night he won't have to sleep daytime on Friday and I am going to have him help me get this house into shape and I am going to take a LONGGGGG shower. I can't wait. He is also going to take Mothers day night off. So, I get to have a good day Monday.
So...the moral to my novel (if you made it this far) is that things seem to be looking up.
The "dad" issue. I tried to hint to him a nice way that we are overwhelmed right now and kinda made it sound like DH was the one who was upset
and I don't think he took the hint. He got all mad at me and such. He told me he'd sleep in his truck if it was that much trouble. Knowing I'd say it was OK. The people he bought the house from are paying him $45 a day rent so I just don't get why he doesn't get an appt or extended stay hotel. It's not like he doesn't have the money. Then my mom reminded me that my brother has a MIL cottage above his garage that nobody uses. If he stopped arguing with my Bro & SIL he could stay there. But....Now it's been 2-3 days since he's called me so he must be really pissed. Dh is happy and thinks maybe he is going to find a place now that he's avoiding us, but I doubt it.
Jane - Thanks. How are you holding up??? Is the nausea at least letting up so you can enjoy the last few days??
Meg - How's the little princess doing?? Is she nursing any better?? How are you recovering?? Are you doing OK physically and how are your emotions?? Are Patrick and Anabel adjusting any better?? I still am looking forward to meeting you at the Zoo this summer if you are still up for it. I just want to meet you and give you a great big hug!! I was telling DH about my plans and he gave me the whole you don't know this person, she could be a baby snatcher, maybe she was never even pregnant. I just laughed at him and said "You can't make up HG." To outsiders we are just "women who met on the net", I feel like HG bonds us to be sisters. I don't know what I would have done without all the support from these boards and the friends I have met.