Mama Guilt

[daisyfairside2012]

I've been relapsing, again, after a decent Saturday and half of a decent Monday. I spent most of today on the couch, writhing in misery. The nausea was complimented by a pounding migraine and ridiculous neck pain today. I took a 4mg Zofran ODT (I'm now taking it as needed, which is just a few times a week - I should NOT be complaining, I know, I'm doing EXTREMELY well compared to others and even compared to my previous two pregnancies) and some Tylenol. I managed to drink some FOODMENT decaf iced tea END FOODMENT. I immediately felt guilty for all of the above. It's completely irrational, I know. Zofran, Tylenol, and tea are all pretty benign.

Because of the guilt, I suffer through it most days, vommitting 4-6 times a day. I'm usually mildly dehydrated. And after losing nine pounds first tri, regaining two in the past few weeks, I've now lost those two pounds over the course of the weekend. The fact of the matter is, I probably NEED the Zofran. And I'm fighting it. I'm not gaining, I'm barely even stable. And I'm 16 weeks.

I'm not sure what I'm hoping to accomplish by posting. I just needed the vent I suppose. It's been one of those days, for sure.

[AnneCan]

Migraines really suck with HG, and I am always so much sicker for a few days. It does sound like you're dehyrated and need that Zofran for a bit longer. Can you maybe look into some IV fluids for a couple days to see if it helps with the migraine? If you can get that under control, the Zofran will work better and hopefully help the nausea/vomiting. Don't feel badly for taking what you have to take to feel better. It may not be long until you really don't need the meds, but for now your body is still obviously struggling a bit. Hope you feel better soon

[Afinkel]

Oh terrible! Any chance that the migraine may be triggered by your weaning off the Zofran? I have been on a pump and get occasional headaches from the Zofran. But, since I recently started weaning the dosage, I'm finding that I'm fighting headaches more often. It's total theory, but thought it was worth sharing.

Plus, don't worry about the guilt factor. I joke that despite all my best pre-pregnancy intentions, my daughter developed on a steady diet of *foodment* coke and oyster crackers *end foodment.*

Hang in there! Best wishes.
Ali

[Kate]

Big hugs! Hang in there mama!

[notcoping]

Honey, take the Zofran, do not hold off for guilt. It is shown as safe and it is! 4mg is nothing. Honestly, you need to function for your own health. I used to do the same because of the cost of Zofran in Australia until I realised that my food/coffee bills were about the same as the Zofran I was taking and so I justified the cost and just took it when I needed it.

[LittleCathy05]

Hi hun, oh no what I hope your feeling better. Zofran gives me the worst headaches/migranes I've got one right now and I'm kicking myself for taking the Zofran bc today was a better day. It's either the nausea,vomiting or migranes. It's like u can't win and it's utterly exhausting. I always say to hubby that I have one good day then 5 bad days and it's frustrating! You may need fluids? But who can b bothered. Eh. But definitely go to hospital if you think It'll make you feel better. I always feel alot better once i actually get my stubborn head to the ER. Feel better soon Hunni xox

[daisyfairside2012]

Thanks for the kind replies and the reassurance. I actually *just* this second caved and took a Zofran to get me through the night. I neeeeever take them at night, but tonight is exceptional... I have reherniated (I herniated last pregnancy due to the vomitting, and had not one but TWO surgeries to repair it two years after the pregnancy), DH is out of town for the week, and I have two little ones to care for. I couldn't risk vomitting and being in even more pain tonight, it's truly bad enough as it is.

*Deep breaths*... but I'm halfway there (my c-section is scheduled for either September 14th or 17th - depending on if the hospital will let us schedule three days before 39 weeks - 39 weeks happens to fall on a weekend, unfortunately and they're being sticklers). Trying to stay focused.