by Gracie » Mar 02, 2006 9:48 am
I hope that this will help you; Just to share an intrusive thought I had after ds was born.... it was completely overwhelming and distressing at the time but I kind of find it funny now.
ds was born 4 wks before Thanksgiving; I decided, despite mild PPD and fatigue to host my immediate family that year. I had the turkey and all the trimmings...
When I pulled out the turkey pan it said "for 10 - 14 lbs" and the immediate thought in my head was "Hey, ds will fit!". It completely threw me off to know that I would even think that, I was still pretty rational and functional but for the next week I was TERRIFIED to be alone with the baby because I kept thinking "What if I just lose it and try".... and for months after (even with therapy), everytime I used the oven I would feel a lump in my throat and a knot in my stomach.
I managed to share what I had thought/visualized with my family about a year later, and over the years we have managed to joke about the thought (not the PPD and the distress I felt).
Gracie