Well, I tried to call my doc yesterday, and wouldn't you know it, the practice had closed at lunch time for the Christmas break, so unless it was an "emergency", which I didn't think I really qualified for, he was not available.
I'll try again next week.
Carla and Angela, it's good to know I'm not the only one caving under the weight of the exhaustion on it's own. I was able to sleep as much as I wanted last pregnancy, and I don't remember if it got worse at the end or not. This time, though, having to have care organised for DD on a daily basis is exhausting in itself. There is such a limitted number of people I can call on, and none of them relatives, that I really feel like I'm taking advantage of people with nothing I can do in return.
Chasidy, You are so not alone in this. We just need to keep telling ourselves that this is nobody's fault, it's just the way it is until our babies are born, and I guess keep looking for ways to make each day a little easier. Yesterday I spoke to a friend in Sydney (1000km away) about it all. She's a very very grounded person. She never crackers me because she was quite sick and realises that I am worse than her and how horrible that must therefore be. She pointed out that my daughter is not living with parents who don't love her. She is clean and safe. She is not starving. She is not abused and her essential health needs are not being neglected. She has not been through an earthquake, a tsunami or a hurricane, and those things are not likely where we live. She does not have to fend for herself, and the things that she is dealing with are not permanent. I felt better while I was talking to my friend about this. It's a bit like the lovely replies I've had here, though, I need to keep repeating the words to myself to try to make myself believe them.
Is anyone else feeling an absolute and complete lack of Christmas spirit? I love Christmas. Ordinarily I love everything about it and this was supposed to be the first year that DH, DD and I did it completely our way, but our way doesn't exist. The only thing I'm looking forward to is DD having new toys to entertain her.
Amanda