i am so incredibly happy that you have found your way out of the dark place that you were in. only those of us who have gone through it truly understand so please believe me when i say i feel your pain and it will get better as time passes.
after we termed in september, i have been trying to eat healthy (a little harder with the holidays) and i have scheduled appointments with 3 different ob/gynes (one we didn't like) and i have two more appts in january. basically, we're looking to see what doctor will be optimistic about our situation as our previous ob/gynes were at a complete loss. i am fully ready for the fact that hg may very well occur again and so i'm keeping that on the forefront of my mind so i'm not shocked again.
in addition to looking for "the doctor" i have actually gone in to my regular physician for full blood work and so that helped because i can focus on the vitamins that my body needs before we ttc again. i have also followed up with a gastroenterologist because i've always had very bad heartburn issues (even when i'm not pregnant) and he put me on an acid reducer to try to heal up some of my esophogus and stomach. and i've already started on the vitamin b6 (minus the unisom) to get my body used to taking it. the vitamin b6/unisom combo unfortunately wasn't learned about until i was spiraling completely out of control.
basically, if you can, just try and focus on yourself. focus on what you want, focus on trying to become stronger mentally and know that whatever happens, it's temporary. that's where i fell short. i was only thinking of the here and now, but you have to think, in 6, 7, 8 months, i will have a baby. and honestly, if it wasn't for this site, i don't think i would have ever been able to get into this mindset. this website is truly a blessing.
have a great holiday season and please continue to keep us posted on your journey, and i'll do the same, and who knows, maybe we'll be making baby announcements within the next year or so.
keep your head up.