This past weekend, dh and I were doing some deep cleaning to prepare the house for baby, and I stumbled across some photos. I've mentioned here before that I suffered several losses, but at its worst, I had almost as many m/c as periods. Every other month or so, I'd be terrified to get my period since I never knew if it would be an actual period or another horrible m/c.
Once I tried confiding in some family members, and I got the feeling that they thought I was making it up, so I took a picture for proof. The last m/c was two months before I got pregnant with ds, and I'm not even sure how far along I was. I woke up with cramping, went to the bathroom, and it literally slid out of me. I grabbed my cellphone and began taking pictures. Once I showed these pictures, most relatives backed off and became sympathetic, although I had one person tell me "maybe it was a baby shaped blood clot." Whatever!
So my question is. . . am I loony for not wanting to get rid of the pictures? I get the feeling that dh wants me to let them go, but I just can't. After years of feeling like I was crazy, these pictures not only validated my concerns, but served as a visual reference to all the other angel babies. Maybe it's morbid, but maybe I don't care. I feel comfortable sharing this here, since I know we all relate to each other in one way or another, so what do you all think?
DD-NVP 2 weeks (1996)
DS-Severe HG (2006)
Flapjack aka DD-Severe HG (2010)
One day at a time!