2 years

[hirschytunes]

Today I remember... I should have a toddler hanging on my leg while I get his sisters and brother off to school. I remember as I get ready that there should be someone else here with me... but 2 years ago he was taken and I never had the chance to even meet him. I never thought I'd get to the point where I would be 'OK' but I am now. Although sometimes I feel like holding on to the pain because I feel like it's my only way of holding on to him. I never did get to hold him.
I find it hard when people forget and ask if we plan to have more. I want to say yes but have had to come to terms that the evilness of HG has torn that dream apart. We will continue to love on the wonderful treasures that we do have- our 3 beautiful children and consider ourselves so blessed to have them knowing there are those who have suffered to still not have 1.
I feel incomplete without him but it gives me all the more reason to lean on Him (the Lord). I know that He didn't cause this... I do know that He has been with me though and I will see my baby someday. I pray the research Doctors have wisdom in finding a cure for this horrible attack on pregnant women and I pray for all women currently suffering- that they find the care that they need and be surrounded by Dr's, Family, and Friends who understand them and support them.

[deb]

*hugs* thinking of you!

[screamin']

I hear you. so sorry. our girl would have been a toddler too. the more time goes by, the farther it slips to the back of our minds. the time has stood still for our babies. they never got the chance to live their lives. it's truly sad to realize that.
big hug to you