What an Insensitive Jerk

[Shyonelisa]

Well, to make a long story shorter I'm dealing with a family tradegy today, so although I'm supposed to be working, I'm not mentally prepared to do so. I figured I'd come here and sulk, but reading through the posts refreshed something that I had placed FAR, FAR out of my memory. . .

Prior to meeting my dh, I was in a 5 year relationship that was "unpleasant" to put it mildly. After suffering several losses (angels) he became obsessed with us having a child together, but one of the losses stands out for two reasons:

I passed the angel in the bathroom, and I must have been farther along because I still remember the way it looked and felt coming out.

When I woke him up to tell him what happened, he just looked at me and said "well, sometimes you have to break a few eggs to make an omlete."

I have never discussed these events, and for whatever reason, it feels good to release these supressed emotions now. I take pleasure in believing that God didn't want me to have a child with that horrible man, but I wonder if I've really gotten over those words, and if I ever will.

Thanks for listening

[screamin']

it is a good thing you can talk about it here.
these angels deserve their place in your heart and in this virtual space together with all the other angels.

[justme]

Big hugs,
Karen

[deb]

ugh, that was truly a horrible comment!! vent all you like. it's never too late or too long down the road to grieve and find some measure of peace.

*hugs*!

[Shyonelisa]

"it is a good thing you can talk about it here.
these angels deserve their place in your heart and in this virtual space together with all the other angels."

Thank you, I think I'm beginning to realize that pretending it never happened is more painful than facing the emotions. I guess I've never felt that anyone could possibly relate, but I am starting to know better. That's probably why I'm such a "helicopter" parent now.

Thanks again ladies, and I will keep all of you and your precious angels in my thoughts.