Hi Ladies,
I am just checking in with an update. I have taken a really nice break from this board. It can be so overwhelming for me to read through posts and all of the problems people are having. Frankly, it was scaring me out of having another baby. I KNOW that is not the intent of the board, and believe me, I also gleaned tons of valuable information, but really, I was just finding myself in tears a lot of the time and even though I understood some of the decisions that have been made of this board, I couldn't support them. It is hard to be somewhere where you don't feel like you can say something positive. HG is SUCH AN ORDEAL!
Well, I am once again an insured person, with GOOD medical insurance and DH and decided we were going to start TTC. So, if I get pregnant, I won't be graduating with DH in May, but I will be bringing my baby home soon after and I think that is still an amazing thing. I have met with a wonderful midwife and I feel comfortable in getting good care from her, despite the fact that she is not a perinatologist. She is a no-nonsense kind of midwife (nurse midwife working under a doctor of course), and she seemed very knowledgable about HG and willing to agressively treat. She also used to work with my perinatologist I had in Portland, OR, so... small world. She ordered up a thyroid test to see if perhaps there is a link there between that and the HG and she is trying to get me in good shape to head into this journey. My thyroid did come back a little off and so she is sending me over to the endocrinologist. She said that I might not even get it but my risk is high, so let's be prepared and do everything we can. I thought that was a nice balance of optomism and realisim. She is also going to set me up with home health care when I need it and a zofran perscription as soon as I get a positive test.
So, I am in that stage of excitment punctuated by fear. I have made an emotional peace with all that I will miss out on and lose in the next 9 months or so, but I know that what I will gain will so be worth it. Having done this once, I know what they can and cannot do for me, and I think that will help. WIth my first, I felt like I was holding out for a "cure" and I know now to take my medications on time, get home health care, ask for lots of help and just focus on staying hydrated and doing whatever I need to get through.
Anyhow, I just wanted to thank everyone for helping me to be better prepared and ready to go on this journey. Please send some pregnancy vibes my direction. I would love to be pregnant now! LOL I can't test for another.... 7 days! I am actually trying to prepare myself for a negative test, I will be so disappointed! And DH and I tried so hard !
Emily