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[Princesshood]

I can't believe how long it's been since I've been here nor can I believe I still remembered my name and password!!
I was responding to a post on FB about if HG ever went away and the answer for me is never:( I can't even bare to come to the site anymore or respond to most things on FB. HG has ruined me emotionally and like I was saying there I feel absolutely guilty for not being there for my future HG sisters. I swore I would remain an active part of this site and honestly I just can't:( It literally tears me apart that I can no longer have babies and I never got to experience the "joy" of carrying a child whatever the HELL that means!!
I just wanted to I guess "confess" (I'm not Catholic") that I really wish that I could be here to help, but emotionally I'm broken thanks to the HG monster. I'm sure someone would say don't let the monster win, but unfortunately after all I've been through I can't help myself:(
I will be a part of HG awareness day and I have told my story several times and will continue to do so. I... Just for the most part have to distance myself because it all hurts so bad:( God Bless

[AnneCan]

I think your reaction is completely reasonable! I feel the same way, and I'm still pregnant! I plan on healing from this pregnancy, and then moving on from it, knowing that HG will forever be a bitter part of my life. Of course I'd like to support other women on this site in the same way that I've been supported, but I'm not sure I'll emotionally be able to do that... I'll always advocate for HG awareness, but it might be in different ways, we'll see. I already feel the pain of knowing I'll never have another child because of HG, and I feel the pain of the lost year's of my life and my relationships due to HG. I truly believe that each person has to deal with HG in their own way(s).

[Schatje]

(((HUGS))) Just do what is best for you and try not to feel guilty. HG leaves a huge scar and we are all different in how we cope with the aftermath. Some people come back because it makes them feel better to help or they find in soothing to be around others who understand life after HG or because they find the experience validating. Some can't because it makes it more difficult for them to cope and heal.

I only found this place after my last pg. I had no support during either of my HG experience and I find the support and friendship I've found here after the fact to be the right thing for me. However, if I had found this place when I was pg I can't say where I would be.

It is wonderful that you are able to keep telling your story and supporting awareness. Not everyone can. Some people have to walk away and wall off the whole experience. That is how they cope. Take care of yourself!