i need help, someone who understands.

[candylds]

Hello, my name is Candy and I think I have HG too. I am 8 weeks pregnant and I am taking 8 mg of zofran every 4 hours. I just feel miserable and want to die most of the time. I had the same with my first kid and I thought I was crazy. I don't know sometimes why I wanted to get pregnant again. I want the baby but no this misery. I can barely eat and drink , I lost weight and I have already gone to the ER. The zofran helps me so I don't vomit that much , but the nauseas are just horrible, they don't let me sleep. I also have this terrifying feeling of despair and pain that no one seems to understand. I can't take care of my son, he watches tv and eat lunchables all day. My poor husband has to go out to eat and he has to clean the house. I just can't function. I feel so alone and sad. I really want to die sometimes. Please talk to me. I really need help.
Candy.

[laventuj]

Hello Candy,
How are you holding up today? You've come to the right place for support, I can assure you that! We all know your feelings of despair and can understand like no one else can. I suffered from HG my first pregnancy, but went undiagnosed. When DH and I decided to have another baby, I thought there was NO way I could ever be that sick again. I thought it must've been in my head - maybe I just didn't "know how" to be pregnant. Wrong. It came back with a fury this time.

How is your doctor treating you? Do you feel that he/she is going to give you the care you need? If not, one option is to contact the webmaster at www.beyondmorningsickness.com. They are incredibly helpful (though don't try to use their forum - it's flooded with spam). But they immediately sent me the author's book "Beyond Morning Sickness", her children's book "Mama Has Hyperemesis Gravidarum" and a print out of her entire blog. The children's book was a HUGE help for my DD. They will also send you names and info on highly recommended HG docs in your area.

Between this site & the beyond site, I finally felt I had found someone that understands. I've actually sent my husband links to others' posts because they helped explain how I was feeling.

You can do this. Use this site - there is so much knowledge and support available to you. Hang in there...

[candylds]

Thank you for answering. I was so sick last night. I vomit and I was scared. I just feel so so sick. My midwife hasnot even see me yet. I have an insurance that is very particular because I can go only to their doctors, the name is Group Health. I don't know how can I get another doctor. I will ask. I was so sick with my first son, and they did not give me medication until I was in my 3rd month..I almost die. That was in 2008. Now that I am pregnant again, I feel so ick...I know the medication helps me to don't vomit that much, sometimes only once or twice per day. But I feel sick and nauseous all day long. I don't know what else to do. I have head aches. Shortness of breath, tiredness, panic attacks, depression, ansiety, loneliness, pain, desire to die. I am on my bed all day because any movement and smell makes me so sick. Anyway, thanks for your kinds words...I am in the Washington, Seattle's area.

[Brynn1984]

We definitely understand because we have all experienced what you are experiencing. Have you gone to the ER for IV hydration yet? If not, it sounds like you are at a point where it would be best if you went. They can give you a liter or two of fluids plus IV zofran (which always made me feel better than oral zofran) and that should help to lessen your feeling of panic and despair. Some of us have to go to the ER every day or every other day for IV hydration for a while, and if that is what you need to do to stay stable then that is what you need to do. As for doctors in your area, I am reading some good reviews for the Swedish Hospital Perinatal Group (http://seattlemfm.obstetrix.com/), and the Seattle Obstetrics and Gynecology Group (http://www.seaobgyn.com/obstetrics.html). Try calling them up and see if they can work with your insurance, or at least work out a payment plan with you if you decide to switch over to them. The best decision I made in my early weeks of pregnancy was switching to a high-risk OB who had seen cases of HG before and could give me the aggressive treatment I needed. We're here for you and know exactly what you are going through, so please keep us updated on how you are feeling!

[candylds]

Thank you for the support. I did go to the ER. After talking with some sisters here, my husband went to get me some unisom.. so I hope I can get some good sleep tonight. I am taking zofran every 4 hours and I still have to meet with my doctor so she can give me more medications..I heard a combination of them works better. I will keep you guys posted. This forum had been a life saver. I have not idea how much can I endure but I will do it all for my baby.